Heavy head... heavy shoulder... life seems to be so heavy to me...

Again... i had no chance to have a nice sleep yesterday...
Early in the morning, i gotto woke up to go for that "Scinahcem" lecture... haiz..
Honestly, i regret i did not write something in the evaluation form.. Else, it would be an interesting essay... Do u expect a lecturer to say something like "There is no fair exam in this world already... DO NOT EXPECT the examiner to think for u... "...
Self-fish... self-fish... self-fish...
Rather saying something that is useless, why would not he say something else that will be useful to us..?? Something like answering technique... or the way he marks the paper...
far more and more constructive to us... o-o
It seems im too critical in this case... however, i would say we got no right to blame him though the way he lectures and tutors really really really not welcoming and sometimes i would say "mou tak king"! You never expect answer from him... That's the lesson i learn from this lecturer....
Don talk about him already... no point complaining here also...
Back to my daily life...
Today, incredibly for this semester, i was able to come home as early as 130 pm...
After watching some dramas and eating rojak, i slept for 3 hours...
It sounds long... but to me, i think that i have slept for few minutes only as im still feeling very very heavy and tired...
I even had a dream... I would not say bad... But something not good also...
In my dream, my friends were very old...
Haiz... what message does the dream want to bring to me???
Time is passing? We are all aging?
Or something else?
Hopefully, it will be something better than worst...
---oo--- jECk without mood... ~y~

Same thing happens and happens again...

Time passes real fast as i oways mention...
Again, it is another end of the skul semester... wat a syok (shock)...
Yuckzz... it means exam is jz around the corner at the same time lo...
Haiz...
Keep on having insomnia these few days... that's why everyday i feel very tired and heavy...
If you ask me whether im afraid of the exams, sori... i can't give you an exact answer...
Honestly, i have no idea what kind of ideology that im holding currently...
Cham cham cham....
4 flat... Do i wish i could maintain that??? Nobody knows... even myself...
oo---oo

Few days more to birthday oredy... till then im still a 18-year-old buddy... but few days later... what would i be??? Again nobody knows... Only god knows me well...
my wish???
wish my wish that im going to make will come true....
All the best to those who view my blog.... ^-^

什么是事实？什么是借口？事实上，有"事实"这回事的吗？

常常让人困于泥陷当中的"事实"就不过是前人和众人所赞同的东西罢了!
又有谁能百分百肯定那一样事情就是事实呢？
世界上的这一切这一切， 都不应该有个定义... 因为每个人都有自己的观点，为何一定要跟谁别人的脚步呢?
有些时候，
我们会被所谓的"事实"所蒙蔽，因而常常都会找借口来欺骗自己...
到头来，还不是因为自己才无法把某件事做好吗？
真的是事实胜于雄辩吗？
我不晓得... 但我相信坚持信念，不到最后一秒都不放弃，往往会让我等到奇迹的出现的那一刻...

不要再为自己找借口了... 幸福和快乐就掌握在你自己手中...
错过了... 可能就会终于等待了...
为自己的为来而加油吧!!!

Gloomy day....

everything seems to be against me today...
what is going wrong actually?? no mood at all....
even though there are alot of assignments to be brushed up, i seem so indifferent today....
In fact, i should say my brain is stuck, totally and completely....
Cant even think and analysis anything up to snuff...
continue being so moody is not going to solve any problems by its own, that's y i should find another way out.... But the question is... what should i do ?

Endurance and patience is always a better solution to bad mood instead of abreacting to other people...
Remember you are the one... but not the only one...
Nothing can stop you from doing anything you want to do.... Try not to be influenced or affected by environment and other people....
See things differently, view the world differently....

太匆忙了... 就不能停下脚步来吗？

时间像是瞬间流失似的。。。
太突然了， 太匆忙了， 也太自然了。。。
自然到使得我有点不是很自然。。。
以前每天都听见姐姐说什么时间不够用， 我总是反驳说：事在人为罢了。。。 放轻松点啦。。。
现在我身在其中， 才发现原来我也不过如此。。。 因为对于上了第二年的我，似乎忙得有点喘不过气来。 可能是我之前太放松的关系罢! 搞得我还有点害怕， 又有点茫然， 还有点不知所措。。。

以前还有时间， 坐在床边发呆， 看看小说， 翻翻哲学书籍。。。 现在， 就连坐在椅子上看看电脑荧幕， 瞧瞧海报， 也都觉得是种时间上的奢侈咯。。。 虽然有点夸张的成分， 但那感觉实在是太可怕了。。。
想必我可怕的东西也没好几样了。。。心理有数了吧。。。

适当的压力是种无形的推动力， 一路来这对于我来讲都是行得通的。。。
但， 未来是否还可以维持这种思维， 那就很难讲咯。。。 唉。。。
要求， 你要就别只求不做；
对自己有要求， 是件好事；因为生存的目的不过是符合需求， 满足要求罢了。。。
清楚自己想要些什么，别人怎么看你，贬你，夸你， 都不重要；
重要的是， 你自己怎么看你自己。。。
没有东西是不可以的， 只在乎你要不要， 肯不肯而已。。。
就这么简单的一个人生道理。。。
知足常乐， 常乐知足