Create Existence

I have to admit that there will be an artist-of-the-year nominated by my inner me.
It's being done subconsciously.
Couldn't help it.
Gary Chaw and JJ Lin had both been mine for the past two years respectively.
This year?
Adele.
Fantastic vocal performance.
Strong and deep voices.
Can't get her songs off my mind. Seriously.
At least for now.
She's just amazing.
Her songs are just soul-touching.
Don't believe me? Hear it for yourself.

Rolling In The Deep [2011]


Someone Like You [2011]


These are just two provisional feeds. Don't bother to get somemore songs for yourself. U definitely are gonna like it.
Not just like it. U're gonna repeat for thousands times like i did.
The songs are addictive.

U might start wondering what the hell do adele's songs have to do with my title.
Well. Nothing, literally.
But, somehow, by listening to her songs.
I found the importance of creating self-existence.
Now, Adele has successfully created her appearance in me.
Apparently, it's not just me. It's hundreds of millions of people on this earth.
She exists for her voice.
She exists for her performance.
She exists for her belief.

We always hear people telling us that the reason for living is for yourself.
U live for yourself rather than for others.
But, is it true?
Or maybe the question should be: can it be?
I cannot.
Certainly, i can't. At least not for current moment.
I feel like i don't really exist.
I seriously think that i ought to live for someone. or perhaps something.
I feel pathetic for right now im living for myself.
I'm alone.
Of cos, i have family, girl friend, best friends and lots of good friends.
BUT, i can feel the emptiness in myself.
It's really empty.
I wish i can express it.
By any means.
Like Adele. She expresses her feelings so well in her music.
Arh. We are always told that music (singing) is a way to express oneself.
How true?
It's not easy. And if u observe carefully, it really does.
But, how many people are able to express themselves just like Adele does?
Very little.
I mean most of us can't even face ourselves truthfully.
U might not agree with me.
but, Well, let's face it.

Self-existence is now associated to being honest to oneself.
Oh mine. It's getting damn complicated.
I've got it complicated.
Great.

T.O.O R.U.S.H

Well. It's now April.
Mid of April, to be more precise.
The good thing is, I stop procrastinating.
It's great, isn't it?
Yeah, i found a part time job.
It's an office job, not the kind of event job that i thought i would have found.

Making decision has never been easy since i was born.
It has not been made much easier since i finished my advanced diploma, either.
Despite the fact that i have half a year to go before i'm officially graduated,
i truly think that it's time to start narrowing down the options for my future career.
Good question with endless answers which leads to no answer.
Whilst the search of the answer, i came across this job.
A kind of job that deals with telemarketing stuff.
Not that kind that involves lead-generation.
Just normal calling job.
That's not the main point here. The main point here is that i get to be exposed to this telecommunication company.
And it happens to be a very very big enterprise.
Cool, isn't it?
Is this fate?
want me to get involved in telecommunication field which i once thought to be an interesting field for me to get in?
Maybe yes, maybe no.

I believed in fate.
Now, i continue to believe more so.

Anyhow, i'm learning alot. Much.
The things around, the office culture, the people, the environment, the food, the technology....

So much that i've realized.
I still like to complicate stuff and rush things.
Still a hot Thing.
Still young, i guess.

It's 2011 march now. Soon it's gonna be April and May will be just right after.

Time is passing by. I'm procrastinating. The drama of life is happening. Without pauses. My grandpa left us. The leaving is forever. My family is recovering, getting used to what it turned out to be. Everything was so sudden. Without noticeable sign, things just happened.

Life was wonderful and is less wonderful now.
Don't quite sure what it's gonna like in the future.

The world sucked. It still is. I'm sure it will always be that way. Greed is the biggest hindrance to the peace of the world. Greed is good. But it's always good for one, never more than that.

I was seeking for the peace of mind. I'm still seeking for it. But the world sucks. my body is greatly affected. My soul is directly influenced. The fact is that peace of the world could hardly be achieved. Chances are there. But very tiny. Almost negligible. Yet, chances are there. Peace of mind could easily be achieved. Well, not as easily as told after all. It practically involves the exercise of being ignorant. There was once a saying says "ignorance is bliss". It's undeniably true.
But, how?

Twentyone-year-old

Most of my frens
have turned or are turning
into
being a 21-year-old.

And ofcz, I already am.

It's not as easy as anyone else below 21 might be thinking.
It's not that fun after all.

To me,
it means it's time to bear all the shit by my own.
Both good shit and bad shit.

DECISION of life.
where difficulty lies,
where doubts grow,
where future seems unclear,
where you choose your LIFE.

I'm experimenting.
I'm experiencing.
I'm examining.
I'm working out Jeck's life.

Wonderful Date

18-Sep-2010 Saturday

An outing after yan's exam...
Truly wonderful after.. herm.. lets see.. 3 months? yeah..
almost that long since my last outing with her..

Spent a few vouchers..
It's also the day i realize the usefulness of vouchers.. =) COoL

1st voucher: GSC movie vouchers
I redeemed the vouchers for
CATS & DOGS: THE REVENGE OF KITTY GALORE


Comments: I think it would be quite a great movie if there's a little more climactic excitement.. Yet, i kinda like the characters in it.. not bad.. =) Rating: 6.5/10


2nd Voucher: Starbucks Buy 1 for 1 free
It's considerably the first time i tried starbucks, if not mistaken... =)

Mocha latte is so bitterly nice... Suit my taste..
Honey's caramel latte is so sweetly nice.. very smooth.. very nice!

After that, it's all about
SHOPPING! everyone likes to shop (majority), so it's nothing special to talk about here.. GO GO shopping..! =)